I work in a pharmacy, day in and day out I see people taking drugs for the right reasons and, unfortunately, the wrong. Here’s the thing everyone needs to know: there is no “magic pill”. There are drugs that calm you down, that take your pain away, but there are no drugs that will inherently make your life immediately better. If there were I’d be the first to know and the first to be on it because every day is a bit of a struggle. I’m not really pro or anti-medication, I’m pro using it if you need it and anti taking it needlessly.
I think the goal should be one day, if possible for you, living without it
I think there comes a certain responsibility with taking medication. You need to be aware, and conscious of what’s going on with your body. When you start taking a medication that’s meant to affect your mood you need to check in with yourself. I will be the first person to say I have a terrible track record with this; however, recently when my depression became more serious I realized I had no choice. I didn’t want to live my life having horrible thoughts, I wanted to be happy. This beautiful yellow, sunny emotion that is contagious and so underappreciated. I wanted to be able to live, not just go day-to-day wanting to go back to bed.
I check in with myself
I’m not joking when I say I mentally ask myself “ Are you happy? How do you feel today? What’s bothering you?” Some days the answers come easier than others: depression, menstrual cycle, a bunch of miserable patients. Other days it’s a little bit more difficult, but these checks you do are important. It’s important to know how you’re feeling, and it’s especially important when you’re adding a foreign substance such as an anti-depressant or anti-anxiety mediation into your system. These checks will help you recognize whether the medication is working if you’re dealing with side effects, and help you formulate any questions for your doctor.
I have a calendar, a physical calendar, at my desk where I write my work schedule and any other things I think are important. I write small notes about how I’m feeling to see if there are habits or patterns, nothing long just a happy face here a sad face there or the word tired.
Ask yourself, honestly, how do you feel today?
What made you feel that way?
What realistic, positive solution will make you feel better?
You are the only one who knows how you’re really feeling and before you just assume it’s one thing or jump to a quick conclusion, take the time to dig a little deeper. I’ll be here, day after day, fighting alongside you, and cheering for you with any support I can offer.