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Are We The Generation Of …

During the day I experience people getting annoyed, angry, upset, or whatever you want to call it, about the smallest most minute things. I constantly find myself getting swept up in this tornado of unhappiness, and the hardest part is pulling yourself out of it. Whether we like to admit it or not we’re influenced by our peers to adopt certain behaviours. I see so many miserable people, and sometimes I wonder if I’ve become one of them. Occasionally I find my mood worsening & worsening, and eventually I hit a wall where I think to myself ” Holy shit am I really this unhappy?” And the truth is I’M NOT. Apart from being depressed I’m…

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Watching Myself Fail

There I was, watching myself try and talk about my depression. The problem was the medication I was taking to help with my sleep deprivation (caused by my depression- irony) was causing me to be all spaced out. I couldn’t carry out a sentence without drifting off and looking out the window. Well, if I couldn’t get the words out at least you could see what it looked like. The uncertainty on my face, constantly looking down and away. The constant wrinkling of my forehead thinking about how this wasn’t working out how I hoped it would. I wanted to introduce myself to people, to show them why I do what I do, what I…

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Blowing Up The Tub Tonight: Part Two!

Bath Bomb article part two! If you haven’t read part one check it out! Not wanting to overwhelm you with my entire bath bomb shopping spree I saved the other next bath bombs for this part two! The Experimenter: A sweet scented bath bomb with snap, crackling, and popping elements. Little blasts pop to the surface while the caramel and vanilla scents envelop you, moisturizing your skin and allowing you to slowly sink deeper into the water. Fun, entertaining, yet soothing and luxurious. Best of both worlds if you ask me! Intergalactic: Fresh to death! The peppermint oil wakes you up and soothes your scentses (… get it). The cedar wood provides that warm toasty feeling while…

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Blowin’ Up The Tub Tonight: Part One

Not too long ago when I was having a less than ideal day I went a little bananas (do people still say that?) at Lush and bought myself some good ol’ bath bombs. That store gives me a bit of a headache just because the smell is intoxicating and suffocating all at the same time, it’s lovely and painful. I love how they display their products, and how they’re so colourful compared to the neutral background of the store. When I walked through the wall of scent into the store the bombs whispered my name. So overwhelmed by the massive selection, and the pre-packaged holiday boxes, I was feeling a little lost. I tried to…

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What’s in a Name…

This past Christmas I did my best to personalize everyones gifts, primarily with monogramming. From necklaces to aprons and decanters almost everyones gift featured a little personalization. I exchanged gifts with my best friends boyfriend, who also happens to be a friend of mine. The gift I received from him featured a little to and from card and on the card it said “To : CIEKAIKAI From: Jesse” Now normally I wouldn’t really think anything of this but here’s the thing… nobody really calls me by my blog/youtube name outside of work. Around friends and family everyone calls me Christina (except for my one uncle who always says Christine). Now, here’s where things start to…

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Lipstick, Self Doubt, Accomplishments & Adventures

Wow! November has flown past me, I hardly feel as though I’ve had any time to really think. I suppose that’s how you know you’re in the thick of it, life that is. No Bare Lips November came and went and it was a challenge I truly, honestly, didn’t think I’d be able to accomplish, the self doubt was high. I know people say self doubt isn’t always good etc etc etc… But I wasn’t really doubting myself. If I really think about it, I think I was just trying to be realistic; setting the bar high in theory but not being surprised if I failed. In the grande scheme of things it probably wasn’t…

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Screen Time !

I love writing; I love being able to read the words someone deliberately has chosen to express themselves. It feels like an open door into their thoughts. Their brain: an open office, filing through their opinions and desires. But here’s the thing… someone’s thoughts don’t always fully express their enthusiasm. You can paint a picture of what you experience and see but it’s always different when you see it with your own two eyes. Imagining is nice but seeing can be better. Everyone’s different and those who are visual learners and prefer to see rather than read would probably prefer some good old videos! Screen time baby, I have started a YouTube channel. It feels…

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Withdrawing From a Bad Day

I have bad days. You have bad days. Everyone has bad days, it’s normal. But what happens when the bad day turns to worse and you find yourself spiralling out of control. These are drug-free tips and tricks I use to combat my depression and anxiety I write Sometimes I have an overwhelmingly large amount of thoughts swirling through my brain and it seems impossible to still them. Writing gives me an opportunity to get everything I’m feeling out onto screen or paper, and to help me figure out what I’m really thinking. Life can be overwhelming and depression and anxiety can cause your thoughts to spin out of control into an abyss of doom….

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Sometimes I Don’t Feel So Good

A reader of ciekaikai told me I  should write about the good days and the bad, this way it gives you a glimpse of what living life depressed and anxious really feels like. I feel vulnerable revealing too much of my bad days online. But here it is. Anyways, if you’re having a day like mine today I’m sorry for you, try going outside it’s really nice out (at least where I am). Maybe read a book, don’t force the day. Don’t make yourself do something you don’t want to do, but  also try doing something small. Do what feels good when it comes to taking care of yourself. One of my favourite things to…

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3 Things You Should Avoid Saying To Others

Recently I’ve been put in a couple of odd situations, and these situations happen to be what are inspiring this post. I’d like to think of myself as pretty laid back, and a person that doesn’t really get offended easily. However, like the normal person I think there’s a certain level of courtesy people need to uphold between one another. This is my short list of things you should try avoid saying to other people (unless of course you’re super familiar with them and know they won’t freak out or be mad if you do)   Weight related comments See this seems like a no brainer but apparently it isn’t as within the last week…

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