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Lipstick, Self Doubt, Accomplishments & Adventures

Wow! November has flown past me, I hardly feel as though I’ve had any time to really think. I suppose that’s how you know you’re in the thick of it, life that is. No Bare Lips November came and went and it was a challenge I truly, honestly, didn’t think I’d be able to accomplish, the self doubt was high. I know people say self doubt isn’t always good etc etc etc… But I wasn’t really doubting myself. If I really think about it, I think I was just trying to be realistic; setting the bar high in theory but not being surprised if I failed. In the grande scheme of things it probably wasn’t…

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Screen Time !

I love writing; I love being able to read the words someone deliberately has chosen to express themselves. It feels like an open door into their thoughts. Their brain: an open office, filing through their opinions and desires. But here’s the thing… someone’s thoughts don’t always fully express their enthusiasm. You can paint a picture of what you experience and see but it’s always different when you see it with your own two eyes. Imagining is nice but seeing can be better. Everyone’s different and those who are visual learners and prefer to see rather than read would probably prefer some good old videos! Screen time baby, I have started a YouTube channel. It feels…

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Withdrawing From a Bad Day

I have bad days. You have bad days. Everyone has bad days, it’s normal. But what happens when the bad day turns to worse and you find yourself spiralling out of control. These are drug-free tips and tricks I use to combat my depression and anxiety I write Sometimes I have an overwhelmingly large amount of thoughts swirling through my brain and it seems impossible to still them. Writing gives me an opportunity to get everything I’m feeling out onto screen or paper, and to help me figure out what I’m really thinking. Life can be overwhelming and depression and anxiety can cause your thoughts to spin out of control into an abyss of doom….

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Sometimes I Don’t Feel So Good

A reader of ciekaikai told me I  should write about the good days and the bad, this way it gives you a glimpse of what living life depressed and anxious really feels like. I feel vulnerable revealing too much of my bad days online. But here it is. Anyways, if you’re having a day like mine today I’m sorry for you, try going outside it’s really nice out (at least where I am). Maybe read a book, don’t force the day. Don’t make yourself do something you don’t want to do, but  also try doing something small. Do what feels good when it comes to taking care of yourself. One of my favourite things to…

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3 Things You Should Avoid Saying To Others

Recently I’ve been put in a couple of odd situations, and these situations happen to be what are inspiring this post. I’d like to think of myself as pretty laid back, and a person that doesn’t really get offended easily. However, like the normal person I think there’s a certain level of courtesy people need to uphold between one another. This is my short list of things you should try avoid saying to other people (unless of course you’re super familiar with them and know they won’t freak out or be mad if you do)   Weight related comments See this seems like a no brainer but apparently it isn’t as within the last week…

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Brunching at Reyna

A couple of weekends ago, upon the suggestion of my best friend, her and I went to a lovely little nook named Reyna. Walking through Yorkville it was a beautiful day, the sun was out and I couldn’t find the restaurant. Reyna is such a little hole in the wall I didn’t even see it. My friend Michelle had to point it out over and over again until finally I said “Ohh, there it is! ” Once inside we sat in the back under the open air. Sitting at a too-small table of very chic design, we ordered drinks. Sangria for me and a caesar for Michelle. The drinks and food menus arrived promptly and the…

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Medication: Hey What’s Going On ?

I work in a pharmacy and so day in and day out I see people taking drugs for the right reasons and, unfortunately, the wrong. Here’s the thing everyone needs to know: there is no “magic pill”. There are drugs that calm you down, that take your pain away, but there are no drugs that will inherently make your life immediately better. If there were I’d be the first to know and the first to be on it because everyday is a bit of a struggle. I’m not really pro or anti medication, I’m pro using it if you need it and anti taking it needlessly. I think the goal should be one day, if…

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My Pretty Blonde Therapist

So I see a therapist, she’s also a medical doctor, and has many plaques hanging on her wall to remind me that I am seeing a qualified person. She’s really nice and understanding and makes me feel good, which I guess is part of why I see her. I don’t know what motivates some people to seek out a therapist, but I see one because I find comfort and relief when I talk with her. I’ll set the scene up for you. I walk into her building; get buzzed from the lobby into the main part of the building. After I ride the elevator up 4 floors I walk into a sea moss green reception…

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Another day : 2017/07/22

Today I had plans, loads of plans. And then they all sort of fell apart. I had very little desire to actually follow through with them, I decided to have a day to myself and tbh it felt weird. I feel as though I haven’t done so little in such a long time. I felt tired and lonely/alone, I “vegged out”watched documentaries and a girlie movie. I tried to take a nap but it didn’t really work because I got distracted by the hilarity of the movie “The Other Woman”. I didn’t work out , which was quite odd. I might do some stretching tonight though as I feel my body needs to have some…

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Space Cadet : A Bad Morning with Depression

So today wasn’t a great day for me. I try and bring light into my writing and my day by giving feelings a nickname, so today I felt like a space cadet. I felt out of sorts, very not myself, head in the clouds and unable to be present. It’s one of my least favourite feelings. Before I went to work today I was Depressed, capital D. The feeling of impending doom, feeling worthless and just generally shit (tbh) . But then I would have these seconds of clarity when I could kind of relax myself and remind myself ” this isn’t you ” , I looked in the mirror and I barely recognized myself…

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